Is it okay to say I just feel?
Does that sentence need to be completed? Is there an unknown life hanging from the edge that will die if I don't share exactly what I'm thinking at that moment?
Because every time I go to open my mouth, that's all I can say.
Incomplete sentences, full of obscurity.
There's where I am right now.
I just simply, but not so simply, feel.
I feel when I wake up, when I make coffee, when I drink that coffee, when I journal and read my Bible, when I get dressed, when I brush my teeth, when I go to class/work, when I talk to people.
It follows me and numbs me and by the end of the day, as if I haven't felt enough, I feel some more when I go to sleep.
I don't know what it is but I'm fighting it. I'm trying to grab on to it so that one day soon, I'm able to complete the sentence and then maybe, just maybe, find relief.
